Last night, we went out to the School to the Nations training camp for our first Africa team meeting. As we watched some videos, I felt fear and excitement swell in me. Randy Copeland, our team leader, asked us what we were thinking and feeling after the videos. When it was my turn, I felt tears in my eyes; I didn't know I had so much fear and anxiety about going, until it was falling down my face. When he asked what I was afraid of, I realized it was just all the obstacles and hoops you have to go through in order to go. It would be so much easier for me to say I'm not going, and that is what my flesh has been wanting to do.
It has been confirmed to me that we are supposed to go. I cannot deny it or shove it down any longer. The Spirit has stirred me, and I am ready to take the risk and trust God to provide and protect. Since I prayed, and tried to let go, all I want to do is worship God, particularly through song. All day, I've felt Him close, as a dear friend, and I know when I told Him I'd trust Him with this, He pulled me closer to Himself. I am thankful.
These photos are from previous trips to Mali that School to the Nations have taken. Enjoy.
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ReplyDeleteI know how you feel, filled with fear. It's so easy to be taken captive by fear, and held back from the things God is calling us to do.
ReplyDeleteI've thought of going on many mission trips since I was 18, and when I would ponder going, fear was one of the first feelings I had. Even though I felt scared, I have always had a longing and a desire to go on a mission trip.
Act on what God is telling you, rather than backing away. It is our duty to go, and not only that, we should be, as believers, anxious to go. And we know that whatever the Lord needs from us, the devil will try to hold us back. But no one is more mighty than our Lord. :)
I'll be praying for you and Tyler, and the trip.
Remember, there is freedom from everything in the Lord. That includes fear.
erin, i think it's such a neat calling God has given you and i'm POSITIVE you will be blessed in so many great ways and you'll also bring God's love to all the people you'll come into contact with on your trip. randy copeland is a wise, wise man. you're being trained to go by one of the most passionate men i know. he helped us prepare for our marriage and it's going wonderfully so far. :)
ReplyDeletei'll be praying for you and the team going! when is your trip?
Lindsay, thanks so much for your sweet encouragement. I'm really glad you and Matt will be around, and I hope you know Ty and I are here for you guys as you transition. Fear ain't got nothing on me!
ReplyDeleteLesley, Thank you! I agree that Randy is awesome, and I could not have chosen anyone I'd rather have leading my team! We covet and appreciate your prayers. We leave December 27!! PS-you are seriously one of the nicest girls I know :)